My sister took her kids in to get their pictures taken, and the photographer was HORRIBLE!!! She not only wouldn't take the picture when the kids were ready, she took pictures that made the kids look possessed or psycho. It was not the best thing in the world, but we thankfully are not going to be going back. At least not to that photographer.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Sometimes being a woman.....
Can really stink! I LOVE that I am able to be cute, and flirt, and be seen as a powerhouse while I am really fragile and sweet. I like to think of myself as a momma Panda Bear. Cute and cuddly, but you mess with me and you better run.
I just don't know how to be all soft and fragile with dating. I attack everything in life like it was some obstacle that I need to get over. But dating is a whole different wall.
You are taught that the woman shouldn't ask the man, you should let him ask you. Sure, you can hint, such as waving huge red flags in his face that say "Ask Me Out" and guys inevitably would look at you and say "Nice flags!"
You are also taught to not call the man. You don't want to appear too desperate in your attempts to get his attention that you call him 100 times in 5 hours and leave 20 messages begging him to call you back because you REALLY need to talk to someone about how someone looked at you wrong, and you are hysterical.
We are taught that we are not to laugh too hysterically to the point you sound like a hyena. Inevitably this will cause the man to wonder what is wrong with you and not ask you out. You should save that for a 3rd date. Or even better, engagement. You should instead go for the sweet giggle, or the cute monkey laugh. Don't go for the Hyena laugh until there is no backing out.
You are also taught to wait in the car for him to get the door for you. That is a great idea, except for when you are sitting in the car as he races across the parking lot to get to the movie on time because he got lost coming to get you. By the time he notices you aren't with him, he has his ticket in hand, and turns to ask you if you have enough money for yours. Then there is the embarrassment on his face as he races back, determined to make the movie on time, rips the door off the hinges, throws you on his back, and races back to the theater window while you desperately hang on to your dignity and your skirt that you thought would be cute to wear. Of course, you probably didn't plan on being a backpack for your date either.... You get your tickets, race to the theater, and because of your dates actions didn't miss a single second of... THE PREVIEWS!!
And then there is the awkwardness of a first date at a movie. You spend 2 hours making no conversation, trying desperately to not touch in the matchbox seats that are the movie theaters with the arm rest up to try to allow both of you enough room (while secretly you don't mind sitting in his lap) and try to not talk too much to disturb the people sitting around you.
Never mind that 2 rows up are a bunch of teenagers talking on their cell phones, and predicting what is going to happen before it does. And being RIGHT!!
After the movie is over, you sit and talk about... THE MOVIE!! I mean, you just watched it so you have to discuss it now right? So therefore, there is NO opportunity to get to know eachother.
Of course, you could have picked bowling. What's more fun than getting your fingers stuck in a bowling ball because the only one you can handle is a very light ball with small finger holes so there is a loud Sucking sound as it comes sliding off your fingers, clunks down in the middle of the lane and sits there, in the huge dent on the floor waiting for you to summon up the rest of your dignity to push it granny style and get it in the gutter.
And then, that opens up his comments about how he dances about as well as you bowl, which is actually an insult when you go to a dance and he looks like he is a chicken that just got it's head cut off, broke both wings and has 2 left feet.
So in this day and age where more and more people are hanging out, making out with no commitment, and just being too scared to date, where do you go to put up the sign that says "Dating opportunities available. Please only SERIOUS MEN need apply. Return Missionaries a Must, please put applications in the box"?
I would LOVE to find that stand. I will be the first in line. :)
I just don't know how to be all soft and fragile with dating. I attack everything in life like it was some obstacle that I need to get over. But dating is a whole different wall.
You are taught that the woman shouldn't ask the man, you should let him ask you. Sure, you can hint, such as waving huge red flags in his face that say "Ask Me Out" and guys inevitably would look at you and say "Nice flags!"
You are also taught to not call the man. You don't want to appear too desperate in your attempts to get his attention that you call him 100 times in 5 hours and leave 20 messages begging him to call you back because you REALLY need to talk to someone about how someone looked at you wrong, and you are hysterical.
We are taught that we are not to laugh too hysterically to the point you sound like a hyena. Inevitably this will cause the man to wonder what is wrong with you and not ask you out. You should save that for a 3rd date. Or even better, engagement. You should instead go for the sweet giggle, or the cute monkey laugh. Don't go for the Hyena laugh until there is no backing out.
You are also taught to wait in the car for him to get the door for you. That is a great idea, except for when you are sitting in the car as he races across the parking lot to get to the movie on time because he got lost coming to get you. By the time he notices you aren't with him, he has his ticket in hand, and turns to ask you if you have enough money for yours. Then there is the embarrassment on his face as he races back, determined to make the movie on time, rips the door off the hinges, throws you on his back, and races back to the theater window while you desperately hang on to your dignity and your skirt that you thought would be cute to wear. Of course, you probably didn't plan on being a backpack for your date either.... You get your tickets, race to the theater, and because of your dates actions didn't miss a single second of... THE PREVIEWS!!
And then there is the awkwardness of a first date at a movie. You spend 2 hours making no conversation, trying desperately to not touch in the matchbox seats that are the movie theaters with the arm rest up to try to allow both of you enough room (while secretly you don't mind sitting in his lap) and try to not talk too much to disturb the people sitting around you.
Never mind that 2 rows up are a bunch of teenagers talking on their cell phones, and predicting what is going to happen before it does. And being RIGHT!!
After the movie is over, you sit and talk about... THE MOVIE!! I mean, you just watched it so you have to discuss it now right? So therefore, there is NO opportunity to get to know eachother.
Of course, you could have picked bowling. What's more fun than getting your fingers stuck in a bowling ball because the only one you can handle is a very light ball with small finger holes so there is a loud Sucking sound as it comes sliding off your fingers, clunks down in the middle of the lane and sits there, in the huge dent on the floor waiting for you to summon up the rest of your dignity to push it granny style and get it in the gutter.
And then, that opens up his comments about how he dances about as well as you bowl, which is actually an insult when you go to a dance and he looks like he is a chicken that just got it's head cut off, broke both wings and has 2 left feet.
So in this day and age where more and more people are hanging out, making out with no commitment, and just being too scared to date, where do you go to put up the sign that says "Dating opportunities available. Please only SERIOUS MEN need apply. Return Missionaries a Must, please put applications in the box"?
I would LOVE to find that stand. I will be the first in line. :)
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Update...
Things have actually started to look up for me out here. I went to Apple Valley and talked to the ladies at the DOUBLE PLATINUM Lane Bryant, and they seemed really excited about me. That's a HUGE thing. It's like a Victoria's Secret for us lovely full figured women next to our clothing store. WOW!!!
I am getting my hair cut tomorrow, and I am loving the time with my niece and nephews. I love my family, and they have made the adjustment not so hard. There are times where I go into my room and just lay on my bed thinking about how things have changed, and how things seem different, and how it still hasn't sunk in!! I still don't feel like I have moved here at all!! I don't think it will sink in until I start working. That will be nice.
I will keep everyone updated as much as possible. I hope that there will be more to report in the upcoming months.
I am getting my hair cut tomorrow, and I am loving the time with my niece and nephews. I love my family, and they have made the adjustment not so hard. There are times where I go into my room and just lay on my bed thinking about how things have changed, and how things seem different, and how it still hasn't sunk in!! I still don't feel like I have moved here at all!! I don't think it will sink in until I start working. That will be nice.
I will keep everyone updated as much as possible. I hope that there will be more to report in the upcoming months.
I love my family.
My sister is also adorable, she creates AMAZING tags and papers. I love this one she made for me!
Had to show it off!
Love it!
This is my first ever tag I made with my sisters help. She is absolutely AMAZING!! I had no idea what I was doing, but she taught me. I like it for my first attempt.
Monday, August 11, 2008
CALIFORNIA!!!
I AM HOME!!! I know that I have lived in Utah for 7 years and that was technically home, but I feel complete. I feel like everything I was missing is coming together now. I feel like I am going to be able to move forward now, since I feel like I have been stuck for so long. I am having difficulties right now with my job, and the "sure thing" that it was to transfer down here, but I don't care.
I feel like I am biding my time and that there is something that is going to change my life forever. I can't explain why it is, or what it is. I am not looking for anyone or anything. I am not praying that I am going to find someone or something. I am done looking. I can't handle it anymore. I am so tired of the rejection, the pain, and the hassle. The constant wondering. The worry. What good does all that accomplish?
We need to be able to be happy, so I started to be happy when I got back to California. It's absolutely amazing how all the stress will just melt away and how all you are left with is an amazing calm and absolute joy that comes from just letting go. I let go of all the stuff I couldn't control. AMAZING!! It feels so good.
I feel like I am biding my time and that there is something that is going to change my life forever. I can't explain why it is, or what it is. I am not looking for anyone or anything. I am not praying that I am going to find someone or something. I am done looking. I can't handle it anymore. I am so tired of the rejection, the pain, and the hassle. The constant wondering. The worry. What good does all that accomplish?
We need to be able to be happy, so I started to be happy when I got back to California. It's absolutely amazing how all the stress will just melt away and how all you are left with is an amazing calm and absolute joy that comes from just letting go. I let go of all the stuff I couldn't control. AMAZING!! It feels so good.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wow.... Moving
Things have been SO crazy lately. I am packing up my entire life to move to CALIFORNIA!! That's right, I am going home! My family did come up to help me pack up, which I greatly appreciate! I just don't know what to do about my car.
My dad thinks I should trade it in for a new one, and I would like to but the problem I am running into is that I can only afford so much, and I am not finding something that I can afford. I am even looking for SUV or something more comfortable than the small car I currently drive.
I am trying to figure out what should stay, and what should be gotten rid of, and it is incredibly hard to figure out! It really SHOULDN'T be, but it really is. It's crazy, but you have to do what you have to.
I will write more later, but I have to just say.... AAH!!!! So much to do, so little time.
My dad thinks I should trade it in for a new one, and I would like to but the problem I am running into is that I can only afford so much, and I am not finding something that I can afford. I am even looking for SUV or something more comfortable than the small car I currently drive.
I am trying to figure out what should stay, and what should be gotten rid of, and it is incredibly hard to figure out! It really SHOULDN'T be, but it really is. It's crazy, but you have to do what you have to.
I will write more later, but I have to just say.... AAH!!!! So much to do, so little time.
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