25 random facts about me.

1. I can listen to a song about 4 times and have it memorized, if I listen to the lyrics. It's really annoying, because sometimes I hear a song ONCE and if I REALLY don't want to have it memorized, it is in my head for good.

2. I hate to move. I have moved a lot, and I absolutely hate it.

3. I am terrified of falling from Heights. I won't go up ladders, I won't stand too close to the edge of anything.

4. I have an overactive imagination that drives me crazy. I can't go out to the car at night without worrying about something getting me.

5. I would LOVE to have a family of my own, despite living with 3 kids under 5. My sister is a angel to let me move in with her.

6. I have to eat candy in 2's. Like skittles, M&M's, etc.

7. I hate raisins!!!

8. I don't like to drive. At all. I am terrified of getting into an accident.

9. I don't pay full price for anything. I will ONLY buy it on sale.

10. I absolutely love Teen Pop music. You don't really have to worry about the lyrics, they don't curse.

11. I am very shy lately. I push myself to be extroverted all the time and it's driving me bonkers.

12. I almost served a mission for my church, the papers were returned. It was difficult, but it was important.

13. I am a severe pyromaniac. I absolutely am hypnotized by fire, but I would never set them.

14. I absolutely love flowers. Almost all types. Roses are my favorite, then Gardenias, daisies of ALL Types, and daffodils.

15. I am allergic to a ton of stuff. Medications, Echinacia, Golden Root, even Grass when it's fresh cut and clay mud.

16. I absolutely love to watch Music Videos. I need to see the story behind the song or I don't like the song.

17. I don't like to sing where people can hear me. I try to sing quietly in Church.

18. I am addicted to movies.

19. I absolutely LOVE the stars. My dream date is stargazing, in the summer, where it's completely dark around so you can see for miles and miles with a blanket to lay on and wonderful conversation.

20. I have never traveled outside the United States.

21. I have only traveled through 9 states that I can remember.

22. I am really thoughtful, so if I don't speak up when someone asks a question it's because I am contemplating it. By the time that they move on, I have an answer for the question but stay quiet because they have moved on.

23. I have a hard time not trusting people when I first meet them, so if I seem a little stand-offish it's because I have to be careful and feel out if I should trust them or not. I trust people too quickly, and that is both a good thing and a bad thing.

24. I love to read.

25. I remember the theme songs, and the names of the villains of the good cartoons from when I was growing up. Darkwing Duck, Tale Spin, Chip N Dale Rescue Rangers, the ones you ran home from school and were SO excited to watch. Remember TGIF? And Disney's Afternoon cartoons on regular TV?

I Hate money

I hate it with a passion. I have been putting off licensing for the state of California because of money. It costs almost as much as a car payment to get everything done, and my boss came to me tonight and said that she didn't know how much longer I can work with my spa until I get the licensing done. A lot of the people that work with the city are getting e-mails for our special on Valentines day, and since I don't have the license yet it is going to cause some problems. So what do you do?

You pound the pavement, looking for ANY opportunity to raise money so you can make the amount needed to get the stupid licensing done. It's going to be in total about 215 dollars. On top of this, she also said that she wants to bring me on FULL TIME. I am only working ON CALL right now, so that would be a HUGE improvement. I can't let that go. So I have to do anything to get some money.

Please pray for me. I have one client confirmed for tomorrow, so that helps. Just pray for me. VERY hard. Please pray for me.

Epiphany

I was driving home from Volleyball last night, listening to my music and a song came on that I totally understood how she felt when she wrote it. She is screaming to be heard, wanting someone to hold her. She's tired of being alone, and she's tired of not having someone in her life, so she is crying out for someone to come and rescue her from being single.

I have been in that place. I have been where I have been screaming inside for someone to rescue me from being single. I have been where I feel like just another face in the crowd. I have been where it seems like I am just begging for someone to be there, and feeling like no one is.

And that's when I realized JUST how grateful I am for this gospel. It doesn't matter how alone I feel, or how loudly I feel like I am screaming. I am NEVER alone in the crowd. I am never someone who has nobody there. While I physically am not able to get a hug from Heavenly Father, I can feel his love for me. I know that he is there for me. I also know that my family is there for me, and I love that.

I never have to worry about not having someone in my life. I have had moments where I was so physically alone that I was crying in my apartment. I asked Heavenly Father to help me, and the tears stopped, and I felt peace and love. I have had it happen so many times where I felt protected and loved that I wonder how people are able to go through their lives without knowing that the Lord is personally aware of what we go through, and loves us. He protects us when he can. He is happy for us, and sad when we hurt.

When we make decisions, he allows us the consequences. Good or bad, we have to accept the consequences for what we did, and that never changes. To have this knowledge made me very blessed, and very grateful.

I love the Gospel, I am grateful to be a member of the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and hope that I am able to share that love with other people.

While I may understand where the artist was when she wrote her song, I couldn't help but feel sad for her and her lonliness. The Lord is out there, he is waiting for us to come to him. He has his hands out, waiting for us to take them. I am grateful for the opportunity to not have that sorrow in my life, and am anxiously awaiting the time where I have a true love of my own.

Catching Up

Things have been so crazy lately, I feel like I have some Catching up to do. So, here is a start. I am sitting at my sisters computer, thinking about all that has happened and realizing some pretty important things. For Example:

If someone REALLY is interested in you than they return phone calls, or at least are semi-interested in talking to you. If someone finds excuses to get off the phone and not do things with you, odds are that they are not interested.

If you feel that this is where you belong, you don't question it. It may be that you are just too stubborn for your own good, and while you have been banged over the head and KNOW that this is right to be here, you keep asking. So it's time to stop asking and start moving.

If you get bored, you are doing something wrong. It is especially true if you are bored doing the same things you have done for the last 6 months and nothing you do helps it. You need to get moving again, and start doing more.

More to come, better help with some kids.... Or at least look like I'm helping.