So much has happened...

So I guess I should start with the MOST important one...

I KILLED MY COMPUTER!!! (Cries)

What happened is that I was working on some kits for the scrap booking thing, and it suddenly froze. It has been having problems with freezing lately, and programs not opening like it should, and so I thought it was just nothing. I thought I needed to restart it.

Well.... I held down the power button, and it went off. I pushed it again, thinking I had taken care of the problem to have a big, blue screen come up saying that Windows had an error and was stopped from running to protect my computer. I thought, hey no big deal. I had run a virus scan that same day, and nothing came up. SO I did what it said, and tried to run it in safe mode. Same problem. So I tried again, and tried again, and again, and again. Every time doing something different, trying to get it to come back up. And nothing worked!!!! I was so sad.

I called my dad, and he said to unplug it, and let it sit for a bit. So I did just that. And still, no dice. So I did everything that I could think of, and nothing. I called my uncle, couldn't get him on the phone. Called my dad again, and nothing.

So my brother got me in touch with a friend in Oregon whom is a computer genius. He heard the error, and knew EXACTLY what had happened. What happened is I CRASHED WINDOWS!!!

I crashed the OPERATING SYSTEM!!! The hard drive should be fine, but the operating system is scrapped. I have to get the recovery disk from my father to get it re-installed, and PRAY that everything is still on my computer. If anything else, I won't wipe the drive. I will take it out, and send it to my brother's friend to get everything off of it.

And it turns out, it wasn't my fault. It was something that can take 6 months or more to happen, and I got it from my family about 3 months ago. So that's not my fault! Laughs. But it is still something that happened to me, and still I don't have the portable hard drive that I need to back up all my files. My music is mostly off of it, but my pictures, that's what I want more than anything. And my videos. That would be nice to have on there too. Gosh, I just have the best of luck don't I?

SO this is my weekend. Besides being an EMOTIONAL WREAK and crying A LOT, having my computer die, and work not being as busy as I would like, it has been pretty uneventful!

I am typing this on my sister's computer, and so VERY grateful that she is letting me use it.

And my best friend from Utah is coming to visit me, I am so very excited! 1 week and 3 days until she is here!!! YAY!!!

Updates

`Sorry, I know it has been a while. So here is what I have been up to lately:

1) Work has been crazy! So many people want me to come in, so I have been living there lately. Fun huh?

2) I have another cold, I just got over one and it seems to have come back or another one piggy backed on the first one. Joy of Joys.

3) I have started digital designs for digital scrapbookers. I have a million and a half ideas for kits, the problem is getting them on the computer to look like what I have in my head. Sigh.

4) I have been trying to help my sister in the mornings. That means I get up at 7:30. I know, it's not that early to most people but to me it is!

5) I have been going to church, and had a breakthrough today. I was more myself, laughing and happy than I have been in a while. It felt really good. I think I shocked a LOT of people as to how open I was about my opinions, but they have to get to know me sooner or later. I just wasn't afraid to speak up when I wanted to.

6) I had participated in a health fair, and that was an experience. Free Massage Samples... Hmm... Let's just say I don't want to be doing that again anytime soon.

7) I did my laundry, finally. Now I need to put it away. I am always really bad at that part. I need to get better at it.

8) I am moving on with boys, and I am noticing the cute ones in my ward. I don't see the point in holding on when someone isn't interested in the fact you haven't tried to contact them in over a month. So... On to someone more deserving. And I will tell you, one boy in my ward is... OH MAN!! So cute! :D

That's about all for now. I am working on getting a scrapbook kit up that I designed, called Tre's Chic! So look for that in the next few days on Sunshiny Daze Designs.

I am a designer!

Hey everyone, I am going to ask you all a huge favor.

Tonight I am going to be putting up a link for a digital scrapbook kit that I had help design. Please go to my other blog, and get it if you want it. I have worked very hard on it. Please please PLEASE!!

Thanks, love and hugs. I have to go to set up my room for my next massage... But here is the link for my design blog!

Sunshiny Daze Designs

So it's done!

I am officially licensed for the City. I have my license being mailed to my house, and then I can start going Full Time at my job! Horray! I still have to talk to my boss and hammer out schedules and when it's all going to start taking off.

Just had to share my good news! Will share more when more comes up!

SO exhasted.

So I feel like I just ran a marathon for 3 days straight. I Had to work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday at the Spa. We were running our Valentines Package, and it was a ZOO!! I had 7 massages on Friday, 5 Saturday, and 7 on Sunday, plus getting robes, food, and escorting people to where they need to be. Something the MANAGER should have been doing.... But we will touch on that later.

I know, you are probably thinking "What's so tiring about massages?" Well, nothing unless you are the one giving them. And think about this for a minute... They weren't all just soft, Swedish massages. I had to do Deep Tissue, I had to do Stone, Aromatherapy, Medley (which mixes all of them together) and I had to do Trigger Point Therapy, with some Acupressure mixed in. I know, that's all Greek. But just think about being a Disneyland, where all you do is walk around. You can't sit down, can't take a break, don't have time to eat, and you can't get a drink of water because there is too much to do. And when you DO get a break, it's for maybe 5 minutes while someone does something you need them to do before you take them where they need to be. So you drink as much as you can, eat what you can, and run again.

My arms feel like they should be rubber. My legs and lower back are screaming at me each time I try to move. The BEST part about the whole thing was the chair I used for the feet massage and the neck. It wouldn't adjust, so it was all the way up extended for the seat, and when you sit on it, it sinks down so you are all the way at the bottom where it is for SHORT people. So, you have to use your quads and hamstrings to stop it from sinking so fast it pops and makes your client wonder what you are going to use to beat them with... (Kidding. I only beat a client in Deep Tissue, and that's with Elbows.... THEY LOVE IT!) as you are trying to be relaxing and not too stressed with the massage.

So I just stood up, ya... Don't know if I will be doing a lot of that today. But for some reason, I need to go out and get some bills paid before the craziness that is this job takes over again. Serious cricks in the neck and shoulders... Sounds like this massage Therapist can use a massage.

So when you are getting upset, thinking everything is just too hard, just think of this.... You could be me this weekend. Nightmare doesn't begin to describe what it was. But my checkbook is grateful for the work. Just please, let's not cram 2 weeks worth of work into 3 days again.

So excited!

So many good things are happening to my friends that I am so happy for them. Two friends of mine who have been together for a while as friends just got engaged, and it's about time!! They seriously didn't surprise anyone but it was just good to know that this happened for them.

But I am ALSO SO EXCITED because my sister has gotten me into Digital Candy, and I am now a digital scrapbook designer. I will have a new blog for it, and it won't be linked to my personal blog for obvious reasons, but I will allow you to access it from here. I even have a designer name!

Sunshiny Daze Designs

Isn't that just PERFECT!?!? Since everyone in Utah knew me as Sunshine for about 7 years, it seemed natural for that to be the name. And I put everyone in a daze... Laughs. Maybe not everyone....

But my sister being the absolutely WONDERFUL woman and designer that she is also made me a logo and everything! Check it out!!!!

I am SO giddy! It's SO Cute!!! She sat down and designed this for me last night, and this all has come together so quickly I am still kind of amazed by it! BUT.... You will need to check in a few days because my part will be posted, it will be a freebie. And I will be designing... How nuts is that?!? I am going to be a designer! Not that I plan to be a good one like my sister is for a while, but it still is a step in the right direction.

SO... If anyone has any ideas for what they would like in a Scrapbook kit, PLEASE let me know. I am still trying to figure out what to do to finish the one I am working on. But please let me know if you want something made, have any ideas, or anything. I am SO excited. Everything seems to be coming together pretty quickly and smoothly.

I HAVE A HOBBY!! YAY!!! Laughs. I am going to go so I can finish my kit, but I had to share my excitement! Look for my blog in a few days, gotta get some stuff decided... Like what to do for the background, and to get some pages designed with my elements and stuff... It is still blowing my mind. Wow. My sister is amazing to help me with this.

Valentines day

With Valentines Day coming closer and closer, it really makes me stop and think about what I have and don't have in my life. I have a wonderful family whom I love and adore. I have wonderful friends who make my life better by being a part of it.

I can sit here and mope and complain about how there is no one special in my life, and about how much Valentines Day makes me realize just how single I am. Trust me, I SO could do that. I have done that for about 7 years as I lived in Utah, but that was because I was truly alone.

I didn't have my family around, my friends would all have dates, and I would have to spend the day as a scrooge. I absolutely HATED Valentines day. I would boycott it and watch movies where one or both of the people in it died and there wasn't a happy ending. And I would LAUGH at them. I was really bad! I called it the Singles Awareness Day because it made me aware JUST how single I was.

The last year was bad because one of my best friends (whom I was living with at the time) had just broken up with her fiance like 5 days before Valentines Day. Then, 3 days later, she was dating someone else. He brought her cards proclaiming love for her, flowers, chocolate covered strawberries, and would be all lovey dovey mushy gross, after knowing her for 2 days!!! 2 DAYS!!!! COME ON!!! I don't personally think that's enough time to get to know someone, you need more than that to know if you truly love them or just lust them.... But that's not the point.
It was very hard for me, seeing what I wanted so badly and not having it.

So I ran away. Literally. I went to a friends house, and didn't come home until they were gone. I left before they got back and went to someone elses house and spent the night there. I had a night planned to watch movies with my friend, have sparkling cider and toast being single. That didn't work out, so I did it by myself. (I am not telling you this for you to feel sorry for me, I am just explaining part of why I hated the holiday so much.) I had to endure the kissing in the kitchen, being trapped in the bedroom because it was more of a studio layout, but there was a separate kitchen, bathroom, living room, and bedroom. It was just one straight shot, and you couldn't get out of there unless you were in the living room.

So when she got married to him 6 weeks later, it was a shock. But it made her happy, and it allowed me to not worry so much for her. But by that time, I was completely done with all of it. The whole Valentines stuff was wasted on me. I don't like it at all, and that completely cemented it for me.

I watched my friend whom was single for 3 days before guys were banging down her door to date her. She has been through 3 other engagements before she eloped with her husband. She finally found the right one, and I am happy for her.

It's just hard for someone when they have had no serious relationships to watch someone throw them away and pick up another one like I would pick up a movie at the video store. It makes you sit and wonder what it is about you that kept you single for so long, and is keeping you single.
It makes you question if it is something physical you are doing, like you are not pretty enough, or if it is just your size, which you have struggled with loving your whole life and can't seem to get down.

It seemed like about the time I loved myself, really truly loved myself, I had to go through this whole fiasco. I was glad to be single at the time, I was grateful to have time for myself, and not have to worry about what someone else was doing. And then everything I wanted SO desperately was shoved in my face and I could see it but I couldn't have it.

So I am grateful this Valentines day to be living with my sister and her family. While I may be single, I will not be alone. I have 3 little kids whom I love and I know love me in return. I have a sister and brother-in-law whom are wonderful. I have my mother, father, and brothers here. While I may not have a huge circle of friends, I do have loyal friends. That's what matters to me. While some friends may be states away, they are close in my heart.

Valentines Day can come, I don't care. I get to work all day, and come home and enjoy what it should be all about. Unconditional love. And I don't need a boyfriend for that right now. I have my family. That makes me content. (But if you know anyone whom is looking..... Hook a sister up!!! :D)