Wow. It's Sunday. Today had some serious revelation for me. I realized that the ward I felt I belonged to for so long is no longer home. I am going home.
I am OFFICIALLY telling everyone I am leaving. I have toyed with the idea, said maybe I will do it, but now it is official. And it scares me to death.
I am not too scared, but at the same time I am. I am not scared because I will be with family. I am scared because of the cost that will be involved, and I am scared because of the insecurity as to the job situation. I know that I have people willing to let me work on them in California which helps immensely to take the weight off my shoulders. But I also know that I have to put in a ton of work to get them to come to pass, and I am tired of working. I am tired of trying SO hard to make ends meet. I am so tired of not having what I need, and not being able to be happy because I am always tired.
I think I need to change my attitude, and I am going to work on that starting today. I am going to try to improve how I see things, and how I do things. I NEED to, so I can be stronger tomorrow because of today.
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